Choices

Can you see me?

I see you… why don’t you acknowledge me?

Can you hear me? I speak but you aren’t responding. 

I am loud now, jumping up and down- hello! I am here!

Confused… I don’t get it. Why is this happening?

All this time, I’ve been speaking and thinking that I have your attention, but something isn’t right. A realization dawns on me…suddenly it all makes sense!

How could I be so foolish? Overlooking the obvious. How you simply don’t care about the things that matter to me right now. I have been seeing you one way and it’s not truth. I have been making excuses for you and underplaying myself for you.

I think back on all the head nods you gave me when you were not even present in mind. The countless times bearing my heart to you where your response was lackadaisical. I should have known the night at the restaurant, when I explained in detail the question you posed to me and the very next day you asked me the same question as if we never had the conversation. I was too quick to brush it off to intoxication.

There is a lesson in all things, and this is no different. Today I choose to take off my rose-colored glasses and listen with intent. This thing I have is not leaving & it’s not a phase.

I am changing. This is what is happening… growing, getting better, His strength in me.  

This next chapter is breaking out the mold…cuz you can’t stop a good thing and I’m moving!

 

Time will tell if you choose me.