Confession

My soul cries out to you O Lord!

Forgive me for gluttony and sloth. Forgive me for not cherishing the gift of good health and nutrition. For not caring for my temple in the way that is befitting to you. Today I cry out to you Lord. Tears of mourning and sorrow for all the ways I have sinned against you with my body. Today I cry as I give my sin to you. Weeping for change and in how I see food. Sorrow in my thoughts. The efforts to do this myself have been in vain. Inconsistent and not giving me good results.  I need your help Lord! I need you in living a healthy lifestyle for my good. I want to be better for you Lord. This is my time for change, as change is happening all around me. This is where I am weak Lord. Be my strength! I don’t know where you are taking me but I do know that I have to do better in the way I think of food. Break the chains the bind me Lord. Break the thoughts of indulgence that I struggle with daily. I cannot overcome this without you. I want to see food the way you see it. Help me. Lord, I cry out to you! With each tear, you embrace me as I humble myself to you because this is your love O God. I thank you for your love.

I didn’t know that was in me… grief of letting go to allow for something greater. There is  beauty in my tears and joy gained in times of truth with God. A genuine emotion in releasing a mindset that hinders me from a revitalized spirit in my creator. He knows already the value of humility. When we come to Him in raw emotion and tonight is what happened to me! The Holy Spirit is my guide. I give it all up to you Lord. Have your way in me. Beauty for ashes. I am blessed and highly favored. In all your ways, I acknowledge you and ask that you direct my path. I cannot alone, I have tried my entire life to subdue my appetite, count calories, various diets and have had good runs along the way with weight loss but nothing that lasts. This time I want to win the battle with my addiction to food once and for all. With Christ, I can do all things.

God helped me quit smoking and I started really packing on the weight. I think of food differently because in my mind food is sustenance in living. I think of food differently than smoking cigarettes. But maybe, God is showing me that it is no different. Anything that is an overindulgence is harmful. Anything that is not good for me is a sin against Him. Food is no different if I am eating cake, cookies, ice cream and chips! I throw up my hands and relinquish it to Jesus. My journey begins.

I am Jacqueline Hill and today I confess that I am giving up my addiction to food and poor eating habits to God. With purpose and intentional prayer in this area of my life, I will overcome through Christ Jesus. Thank you for my life Lord. Thank you for all the blessings you have given to me. From a a loving husband, to healthy children, to a house where we serve you Lord. Continue to have your way in my home.  In the glorious name of Jesus. Today I declare, that I believe no weapon formed against me will prosper in the name of Jesus. I declare honor and victory over sin in my life in Jesus. I declare to use my time effectively and purposefully to walk in the will of El Shaddai, in Jesus. I declare that Jesus is my Lord and Savior, through Him I can do all things. Through His stripes, I am healed. All for your glory Lord, Amen!