I have to admit that I don’t think from a spiritual place. Many times, in fact, I don’t think from my spirit until I am faced with a situation or circumstance where I call on you. You are teaching me to think in spirit, make choices from spirit and act according to the Holy Spirit. You need to be first above all things in my life Abba.
Forgive me for my shortcomings and I ask that you continue the work you have started in me. I am yours. Thank you for choosing me Father to do your will on earth. There are so many who have been called but don’t know how to take the next step in growing in you, as I was one of those people. Every walk varies and mine is no different, I ran so long from you with moments of your glory along the way. That is the kind of Father you are… generous, kind, loving and forgiving. You want us to come to you with it all. Our woes and our happiness. Our conflict and our successes. Our heartache and hangups. Our tribulations and our trials. Everything that makes me who I am. You want it all!
Your love is without measure and for a long time, I could not comprehend it. I’ve been asking for less of me and more of you. I praise you Lord! Through the good, bad and indifferent you are with me. I am left in awe of you. I give you the praise! Today is a good day simply because you gifted it to me. Thank you for having and holding me. Your goodness is infinite toward me. You love me like noone else can and I am blessed by you. Now it is time to be strong and of good courage. This is not a time to be scared or fearful of all you have planned for me. Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.
Lord, please give me clarity on next steps.
Forgive me Father for harboring ill emotion about MS and not talking to you about it. This disease creates uncertainty in me. I try to ignore it but I can’t. Today I fell and now I have pinches on the right side my face. Which means there is activity in my cervical cord. I have to say that I feel guilt for not caring for myself all these years. My heart wants to cry and feel sorry for myself , cuz why do I have to go through this. But you tell me that I will suffer for a bit and then joy comes. It always comes. I am missing my parents this year a great deal. Thoughts of their love and sacrifices for me and all that they instilled in me. I am reminded that each day is a chance to recommit myself to you and today is that day for me. I’ve been avoiding you and incrementally becoming more sluggish by the day. I know better! Everyday is a fight for my faith!! The evil one hates me and wants to trip me up, I am wiser because of you Lord. Thank you once again for showing me myself. I thank you for forgiving me time after time. I hold you high Father, for your faithfulness knows no bounds. In the glorious name of Jesus, my strongtower. Amen!
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