Maturing

Engaged with knowledge of truth. For whence a person may come, is not where they end.

Feeling of nostalgia fills me as a young child again, remembering my thoughts and words. So timid, yet bold. I could always get my father to laugh. I remember vaguely, as a very young child, one day I packed my Barbie suitcase. With all of my dolls and headed out the door to the corner. There I knew to stop, because my father told me never to cross the street without an adult. When my neighbor saw me, she asked where I was going? My response, innocently enough, “I ran away and I am not allowed to cross the street.” My father always laughed when retelling that story. He knew, at the age of 4, I would be a strong and obedient woman. I miss my dad in so many ways. From our talks, to his countless stories, that I could listen to for days. I have realized for awhile now, how significant his influence has been on me. From my prayer life to obedience. God blessed me with my parents.

Today, I remember Jesus. How he was faced with challenges, endured while walking in the will of the Father. How beautiful to see Him going through for me on the cross. I can speak for myself and say, I can’t handle what God has for me. When I think about it, I am in utter wonder. Reminded of the fierce spirit he has placed in me. Simply, less of me and more of you Lord. For to live in Christ is gain. Through the storms, the waiting, the breakthroughs and exercising my faith, I remain reliant. There is beauty in truly believing, whatever I encounter, He remains true in love.

What seems like a dry season, I find are the periods where He is behind the scenes. Positioning, working, preparing me for the next step. He continues to teach me patience, kindness, holiness, and no compromises. Where I am traveling, there can be no wavering. I realize in moments, that He has already paved the way if I walk in obedience. I serve to “thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.” I know little, yet He is great in me. Only God can do that. My life will continuously be open to all He has, and it is the call to Elder this season. I look forward to the opportunities to trust Him and be a witness.

The Lord is my rock and foundation. With His stability I am able to grow in spirit and truth. At one time I could only drink milk, because that’s all I could handle, the capacity in which I could receive. I was a baby in spirit. Today, He allows me to eat solid food, filled with juicy morsels that fill me, and others around me. Later, I’d like to eat a full course meal. Yet, I am not ready. He loves me so much that He protects and keeps me from myself. Knowing now that fools rush in. He will expect more of me in due time. Meanwhile, He continues to teach, show and grow me. My spirituality, filled with godly influencers, blessed with lessons of the good and the ugly. He has already worked it out for my good. From the age of 4, when I first made a “big girl” decision to the present day, God has been working on me. We perish for our lack of knowledge. The Bible and a sound mind are my gifts. Allowing the spirit to use me. Not knowing what to say, but saying what is good and edify the spirit. My attitude today continues to change toward people and circumstances. He has allowed me to see with a heart of gratitude, my husband, sons, and all the blessings! My platform, authority and joy are found in Jesus!

Today, I can help someone else understand. Where we end, God begins. Thank you Lord, for taking your time.