God has placed me in a position of influence early in my life, since my twenties, that I have managed people. I had to go through many pains to understand the real meaning of true leadership. However, it was not until I realized God’s plan that I thought was for me, would unlock many of my leadership qualities in every aspect of my life. But last night…last night was like pieces of a puzzle finally coming together that made sense.
I have been degraded, rejected, oppressed, judged, confused, lied about, unfairly treated, and made to feel inadequate and unworthy. Then God stepped in and made me confident, respected, influential, positive motivator, fighter for the forgotten, voice for the mistreated, and a blessing on earth. I know all these things about myself but what I didn’t know is that all these gifts were for my husband. The one who loves me beyond measure as a human being can. What I couldn’t comprehend is the grit God has placed in me for Him was to be used to fight for my husband. The evil one does not want to let him go. The faith that God has built in me is to take my position as a wife to a man who will serve Him in magnificent ways!
Since the days I began to understand God’s glory, I always knew I would be a speaker for women and children who did not have a voice, more so cannot speak due to the pain that runs deep inside. And then last night a pastor called me “First Lady” which is a term used for a pastor’s wife in the church. Some may think it was a mistake and easily bypass it, but not me, I think it was a prophetic word and all that I have gone through and am currently dealing with, came together in a simple phrase of “mistaken” identity. I laugh out loud because God is so marvelous and outstanding in all His ways. He brings the most undesirable people to the front line to be His soldier and represent Him. I think of Saul of Tarsus who became Paul the apostle, David the sheep herder who became God’s beloved and king, Gideon the fearful, who God used to defeat the Midianites and Jonah the runner who had a prophetic word to deliver for God. There are so many others who have served God in great ways in their lifetime even if only for a moment, we all live and breath for God’s glory.
The late nights concerned with my husband’s well being, praying over him and for him. His independence that I know is important to him and will not be compromised. The voice of reason, with an inept ability to analyze and make a good decision under pressure. He can rationalize without emotion, rooting for the underdog. The heart of a giver who is there in time of need. This is my husband. Who I see as a king for Christ. In the army of servants, a slave to our Lord and Savior! He just doesn’t know it yet.
The message last night was intentional from God through this pastor because He knows how to energize me! When all hope is lost, here comes God! I prayed yesterday morning and God did not waste any time responding. I am blessed in so many ways walking in the fullness of Him who stands with me, provides and covers me, my Lord! He has told me countless times to stand strong and be of good courage. Those words resonate in my spirit, from Moses to Daniel, and to the church in Galatia, I should not become weary in doing good. Praise you Lord for insight. I worship you forevermore.
I am the righteousness of Jesus and I honor you. Thank you for your love Lord!
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