His Love

It’s March 17, 2020 and I received a diagnosis today that I have multiple sclerosis. I am in shock, trying to be a big girl and fight back the tears. I feel like I did something wrong. My mind goes to thinking on how could this happen to me? When I ask the doctor, she tells me that there is no scientific reason why this occurs. Hmm, I don’t like that answer. I ask what is the course of action for this disease and the response is to manage it. It is something I will have to live with. Still not liking that answer…and so here I am feeling like I haven’t given the proper appreciation to the gift of walking, moving, reacting as I should. Thinking of how wreckless I’ve been with so many of my gifts. I never posted this still working out my emotions. But…

It’s been 4 months since my diagnosis and today is July 6, 2020. I will not go down without a fight! I have lost 25 pounds. My outlook on health have changed. Treadmill daily, eating habits improved and I am relying on God every step of the way. I can’t say that I didn’t know I needed a change… but God will make it so that a choice will need to be made. As a matter of life and death! He just kicked me in the butt and said you can do it. I love Him for that…He reminds me His grace is sufficient, to be patient in affliction and steadfast in prayer. And I still don’t always follow through 100%, yet His grace covers me. I am in love with you Lord. You are beautiful and I desire you. I want to be with you always. Thank you for your love. Continue to help my immune system Lord. Thank you for growing my faith. Thank you for making me a Kingdom warrior. I praise you! Grateful for another day.